Personalities are not fixed, which gives us the hope to transform from naive to sophisticated. Here you will learn about Conan's transformation.
I was once asked by someone: Conan, who are you?
C: Excuse me?
A: Yes, who are you?
C:
I was stuck by the question, and I've been searching for the answer since then.
Four years ago, when I was still a sophomore in college, I started to read English for practicing every morning at 7 o'clock.
First few days, I struggled to read for at least half an hour. While the following days were much tougher.
Just a week passed, when I tried to speak English but nothing came out, I felt extremely frustrated, and I began to believe that English was not in my favor.
How impatient I was.
Long after that, I changed a lot.
I still remember the time when I restarted reading English every morning.
( I read my first orginal English book, many hours a day. But a week passed , I still couldn't read even a little better than before)
After even two months, things seemed to be the same. I still could't speak English with satisfying fluency. In fact, I even didn't feel that I was making progress. But, this time, I didn't stop. I kept reading and reading.
I knew it was an effective way to improve my English in the very beginning. If I persisted, I would make progress even though I couldn't feel it. Finally it did work well for me, I became a much better speaker.
As the sayings goes, Constant dripping wears away a stone.
Man needs patience to realize the power of accumulation.
Now I've become fairly patient.
From impatient to patient, it is a profound transformation in my life.
Still when I was a sophomore , I became the president of an association. When one friend told me there was a guy making a lot of bad comments on my association, I turned angry and crazy straight away. I took out my phone and texted him some bad words which I can't tell you here because it is toastmaster's taboo.
Without thinking even for a second, I made the worst decision.
How reckless, and how impulsive I was.
Long after that, somehow, I became completely different.
I also remember the time when every part of welfare was cut, when my salary was even cut on account of our company policy, I was not feeing well, but I turned to be calm after having a short time of deliberation.
The logic was quite simple - Does that matter for the long run? Apparently, No.
However, it doesn't mean I don't care about my income, but distincly, there is something more important I should concern about - what I call self-improvement.
As a consequence, all I need to do is to concentrate on improving myself. I only think about what I can do to make a difference, instead of dwelling on what I can't change.
As the saying goes,
take the grace to accept the things you cannot change;
take the courage to change the things you can;
and take the wisdom to tell the difference.
Now I 've become rather deliberate and calm.
From reckless to deliberate, from impulsive to calm, it is another significant transformation in my life.
Who am I? I still can't answer you, because I am changing all the time.
But at least, I can tell you that I am always in the transformation of being better and better.
