I met Amel last year on an occasion held by my aunt at her place. He came there as he is one of my cousin’s close friends. I knew a little about him that we were pursuing the same higher studies. On our first meeting I found him very annoying. I didn’t like him at first. But after that we met twice, I kept thinking about him.
After two weeks my result of entrance exam was out, I failed in exam and he was failed too. I was very disappointed by my performance. But in our conversation he encouraged me. We decided to reappear for exam. Every day we were chatting endlessly. We were sharing our childhood to each other on which we laughed so I was smiling without reason. It was something I never felt for anyone. For me everything started to look so beautiful. In nights I kept thinking about him.
After 2~3 days, at night I expressed my feelings about him. He was in shock that he never thought about me like I did. I didn’t expect him to have same feeling for me. He was relieved and started to say how I was bold to express about my feeling so gently. I knew it was not just an attraction. It was more than that. Was this love? That feeling was so strong that I wanted to propose although I knew I would not get affirmative response. Still I did what my heart told me to do. I proposed him through text. He called me within 5 minutes. He was a bit angry on me. He was trying to convince me that he knew what exactly I was feeling for him but he was helpless as he loved someone else deeply. I could sense that he was disappointed by my act.
He ended our chat with advice to focus on my studies. I was heartbroken. After that we stopped chatting. I knew it would happen somehow. This sudden non-communication hit me hard. For a few weeks I did not get proper sleep at night. I cried a lot.
