You don't need to deny it. We used to deny something especially it is not great for us. While it is a normal thing. Whatever changes it will happen. So you don't need to escape.

As a human, we have different emotions that will influence our lives. While don't immersed into it. With our growing we gradually understand and accept something that we can't change.

There are so many thought abrupt from your brain. It doesn't matter don't hang out for a long time. We still have many things are waiting for you.

I know you need to adapt it. You will get along well with yourself.